Amma Bhagavan Sharanam

Amma Bhagavan Sharanam
Amma Bhagavan Sharanam

Sunday, November 25, 2012


I was disturbed since morning as nothing seemed to be happening in the outer world. I felt quite lost as I didn’t know whether I should push for something or whether things will happen by themselves. I had been nagging Bhagavan about a number of things – whether things will really change on or before December 21, 2012, how things will happen, etc.

Bhagavan: If I give you specific details, you will form them into concepts and believe that only those things will be possible. There is no sense in offering specifics as things will change as per the wish of the people and the way they visualise and create the world. So, it does not make any sense for me to tell you that the world will be in a particular shape.

Sundari: I am totally confused. That’s why I keep asking you to come before me and give me clarity. When Archangel Michael says that the earth will move into 5D but some part of the human population will stay back in a hologram, it sounds plausible, but I am not able to quite accept it. I thought that when 70,000 plus people are awakened, automatically, the world population should awaken. Then why this? (Click here for the reference link)

Bhagavan: Exactly. Here you must understand one thing. When AAM says that a situation is so, then that is truth. But we both know that there can be many truths existing simultaneously. When Steve asks certain questions, he receives answers that are acceptable to him. If I describe what 5D could be, people living in 3D may not even understand what I am talking about. And I will not even be giving the complete description and will probably be only giving a minuscule viewpoint. So what do you want me to say?

Sundari: All of you keep saying that we should not keep our focus only on December 21, 2012. I am confused as to what I must do or not do.

Bhagavan: There is nothing for you to do except meditate, pray and keep seeing your thoughts. You cannot do more than that. When you feel fear, be aware. There is nothing else for you to do. I told you to ask for enlightenment NOW, and not to focus on a future date. You have to be aware that you are living for December 21 and that you are not even aware of today or the second you are living in.

Sundari: True. But I don’t know how to come out of it.

Bhagavan: You have to be aware and ask for enlightenment NOW. That’s why I told you to take deeksha as many times as possible and especially whenever you feel low or are sliding into a breakdown. When you take the deeksha, you have to tell your Divine to grant it to you NOW.

Sundari: Thank you Bhagavan, I have been doing that. In fact, I have told the people around me to do it too.

Bhagavan: Every single concept that everyone visualises can become possible in 5D. That’s what creating is all about. That’s why it is not possible to tell anyone exactly that this is how the world is going to be. Even God is game to be surprised and every moment is to be experienced. There is no need to fear and you know that. You are disturbed as you are losing control over your life completely and you don’t know what’s going to happen. You feel if you have a date (December 21, 2012) on which you can focus, then there is some semblance of control. That’s exactly what I don’t want you to do. But then, I realise it is like telling you to take medicine without thinking about the monkey. You will do exactly what I told you not to. That’s why I keep reiterating that nothing special is going to happen on December 21, 2012. If I say something, you will hold on to that tightly and imagine that only that one thing will happen on that date. That just cannot be true. Are you able to grasp what I am saying?

Sundari: Absolutely GG! I understand and thank you. But please give me something to go on.

Bhagavan: I have told you all the story of the two farmers during the advent of Kali Yuga, during Lord Krishna’s reign. How they changed drastically in barely a week’s time. The first week, both of them wanted to give away the pot of gold to the other. Immediately after, they each turned selfish and wanted the pot of gold for himself. That was so because of the change in the Yugas. Dwapara Yuga where there had been 50% positivity had given way to Kali Yuga where there is only 25% positivity.

In the very same way, now the Yugas are shifting once again. Kali Yuga is giving way to Sathya Yuga where there will be 100% positivity. Immediately, around December 21, 2012, there will be a grand transformation in people’s hearts and minds; even in their whole systems. They just cannot think negative. There is also the added bonus of all negativity being wiped out from your unconscious mind and all karma cleared out.

The result? There will be no fear, unhappiness, tension, negative karma, pain, disease, jealousy, anger, lack and other negativities. MAN is literally reborn with a clean slate. What you create over it is up to you. But imagine living without these negativities that are weighing you down now. That will be your state. That is what the Golden Age is all about. For this mental state to reflect in your outer world is totally up to you. You have all the help from your Gods, Celestials, Galactics, Extraterrestrials, People from the Inner Earth and more. All you have to do is ask for it.

I am offering you a state of pure love, joy, happiness and plenty. Just grab it with both hands and enjoy.

Sundari: Thank you so much, Bhagavan! I love you and will continue to nag you till you appear in front of me. :D

Tuesday, June 5, 2012


This picture of Amma is from the
Srimurti at home
One day I was sitting in my office, thoroughly hating my job. This was in June 2009. I felt so uninspired and bored, doing the routine work that paid well. After completing the urgent things for the morning, I felt myself sliding into a breakdown. That’s when I prayed to Amma. I asked her to give me inspiration to do something creative and interesting.


Suddenly, the thought came to me that I can blog. I immediately went on google and found out about blogging. My first blog was ready the very same day. Today, I run five blogs singlehandedly (with of course, Amma’s hand on my head blessing me 24/7) – writing, editing, designing and more.

It’s almost three years now and I have not looked back. My life has become absolutely colourful and joyous as I write blogs. It is my space where I get to express my creativity and my thoughts when and how I please. What more could someone ask for?

There were a few people who have asked me, “You spend so much time writing so many articles after watching films and eating at restaurants; then you write short stories and novels. What remuneration do you get out of it?”

That’s the best part of the whole thing. For remuneration, I do a lot of work that I don’t much care for or don’t enjoy to the maximum. I do that too as an income is an important part of one’s life and a necessity.

Blogging is for joy! I simply love it and it thrills me no end when I receive a feedback – especially a positive one – from someone.


Tuesday, May 29, 2012


My cot is the one on the right

I have heard a talk by Sri Bhagavan of Oneness University where he mentions that everything has consciousness (chaitanya) in it – both living and non-living things. It is just that inanimate objects vibrate at a different frequency.

Then Sundarji had mentioned in some of the classes that he had conducted at our home, that healing can be given to all the equipment that we use at home. For eg.; Sundarji mentioned that we can heal our fridge, washing machine, computer, TV, etc. It sounded good and I have given healing to the said equipment many times.

But the latest experience that I had was simply miraculous. Venkat and I have two single cots placed together in our bedroom. The one Venkat slept on creaked badly. We tried shaking it but it was quite sturdy and did not seem to require a visit from the carpenter. But it continued to creak every time Venkat turned and he did that quite often.

That’s when I suggested that he interchanged the cots and allowed me to use the one that creaked as I don’t turn around too much in my sleep. The shifting happened the day before yesterday. As I lay down on the creaking cot in the afternoon, I shifted once and it literally groaned. Suddenly, my inner guidance led me to talk to my cot. Yeah, you read that right - I talked to my cot.

I said, “I love you Cot. You make a lovely and comfortable bed for me. I don’t quite know what is making you uncomfortable. But thank you so much for taking care of me.” I touched the cot as I uttered these words.

Incredible while it sounds, the miracle happened instantaneously. The cot stopped creaking from that very second. Venkat tried it and Viggy slept on it in the night. Vinny lay down on it and kept turning around after she returned from Goa today morning. The cot has become a silent one, having been healed completely with love. Vinitha is still amazed as she remembered the time when this very cot had been in the kids’ bedroom and it used to groan and groan.



Saturday, May 26, 2012


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I had read a lot on the internet about the effects of the Annular Solar Eclipse 2012 on the environment, on the earth and on human beings. Click here to read more on this. A clean up of negative energies is happening around the planet to ring in The Golden Age on December 21, 2012.

The clearing up is being carried out by helpful Extra-terrestrials who have come down from other parts of our Universe to help the Earth and her inhabitants. In India, the ETs are called by another name – the 33 crore celestials (muppathu mukkodi devargal - முப்பத்து முக்கோடி தேவர்கள் in Hindu Scriptures). A rose by any other name will smell as sweet – Thank you Celestials, whoever you are.

Between the solar eclipse on May 20, 2012 and the Venus Transit on June 5-6, 2012, negativities will be completely removed from earth. This is what my Bhagavan told me in my Antaryaamin on May 21. I requested Bhagavan to show me proof of the clean up and forgot all about it.

As usual, the Divine never forgets. I usually go for my evening walk at around 7 pm. That particular evening I stepped out at 8 pm. I am not sure what prompted me to look up at the sky – it was a gorgeous shade of dark blue that I have never ever seen in Mumbai. Mumbai skies have been various shades of grey, especially after sunset, over the past 2 decades. I was simply amazed to see this lovely shade of violet-blue with wispy white clouds (also unseen) floating around. I called my husband, kids and my sister Lakshmi as I was totally excited.

Later, I spoke to a friend who lives in Kolkata and asked her to check the Kolkata skies too. Amazingly, she had also noticed the lovely change that had come about. Another friend in Mumbai had also noticed the transformation.

I have checked out the skies – both during the day and at night – and it has been consistently clean and a lovely shade of blue.

I am sure all of you should look up at the sky back home and see that it has changed forever. Yeah, we have put one foot into Sathyuga – already.


Wednesday, May 2, 2012



Jaya has been working in my house since ten years. That was from the time she moved to Mumbai with her elder daughter Anjali. Her younger daughter Geetha joined them a year later after completing Std. V in their village. Jaya had decided to shift her family to Mumbai after her husband’s death as there was no way to make a living there.

She chose Mumbai as her sister and family also live here. Jaya did not even think of putting her children in school in Mumbai. One was the language barrier, another was affordability and the third and predominant reason was that Jaya did not realize the value of education. While Anjali was not too disturbed by this, the younger Geetha had always dreamt of studying further. The 9-year-old did not go to school for the next four years. I was busy with a job in those days and also because Jaya was new to my household, she never mentioned anything.

I was going to Bandra to attend a lecture and prayer session conducted by Amma Bhagavan’s guide. I took my children; a friend; her son; Jaya and her younger daughter who was absolutely fascinated with Amma Bhagavan. Geetha had already begun praying to the Srimurti since a few months. At the time of the Pooja, Geetha was 13 years old. During the prayer session, we were all told to make a wish and pray to Amma Bhagavan. Geetha diligently followed the session and said her prayers. Not that she shared her secret with anyone.

A couple of months later, the Municipal School next door sent out volunteers to the Basthi where Jaya lives and encouraged children to join school. The education was free of cost while they provided books, school bag and uniforms to the children. A super-excited Geetha told her mother to enroll her. Jaya was very hesitant and talked to me about it. I told her to not even think about it and to put her in school. My daughter Vinitha offered to pay for any private tuition that was required for Geetha and she does that till today.

After the admission process was complete, Geetha let on to her mother that that’s what she had prayed to Amma Bhagavan – that she should get a chance to complete her studies. The childish innocence and strong faith brought down the full force of Amma Bhagavan’s grace and her prayers were answered immediately. Geetha was allowed to join in Std. III as she had never studied Hindi before. Not that the kid was terribly bothered. She forged ahead with her studies and today at 19 she has successfully passed out of Std. VIII. Her results came out yesterday.



Tuesday, April 24, 2012


My mother & Me

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My mother Vijaya has always been active and works hard. She loves cooking the most and one thing she likes even better is feeding people.

Unfortunately, she fell badly ill and was hospitalized in November 2011 and could not even attend my nephew’s - her grandson’s - wedding immediately after. There were a number of complications – she is a diabetic, has high BP, a not-too-strong heart and a minor kidney problem. Added to all this, she fell prey to Dementia. The psychiatrist told us that she must have probably been struck with it since 2-3 years and Dementia generally shows up only after a few years. It was quite a shock to all of us as my Amma has always been guiding us throughout our lives. She and my father had been taking care of my 98-year-old grandfather until a couple of years ago.

At that point, I prayed to Bhagavan that I hoped that she stayed alive and could move into Sathyug as Vijaya but also prayed that if it is her soul choice then she should pass on. That’s when Bhagavan reassured me that my mother will live long enough to cross into Sathyug.

Over the past few months, while my mother could physically move about, her mental condition prevented her from doing so. She insisted on staying in bed. The doctors – a couple of them – had recommended a number of tablets that kept her in a dull condition. But there was not much we could do about it.

There were a number of consultants who had attended on her at Vijaya Hospital and every one of them was clear that only a miracle could get her out of Dementia. Dementia generally tends to get worse with the passing of time and can be arrested to some extent with medicines.

While my sisters who live there locally go there often to meet my mother, it was my father who stayed with my mother 24/7 along with the nurse on duty. I am sure he must have had the worst time of his life during this period.

A week ago, my mother suddenly felt breathless and my sister and father decided that it was best to take her to hospital and they called an ambulance. I was very upset when I heard this.

I had thought things were status quo and Bhagavan would soon cure my mother and things will be hunky dory, especially with December 21, 2012 around the corner. This sudden need for hospitalizing my mother was a shocker.

I asked Bhagavan, “Are you showing me signs that it is time for her to move on and telling me only now? Please give me guidance. I don’t even know what to pray for.”

Bhagavan said, “Your mother will be fine and it is not time for her to leave the earth. You are her daughter, you ask me for a miracle that she should be cured.”

I did that but got up at least six times in the middle of the night, worry eating into me. I kept feeling fear.

Come morning, I told Bhagavan, “My mind is going on putting me in the state of fear. I am very worried Bhagavan. You do say that my mother will recover, right?”

Bhagavan smiled and said, “Mind is fear. You had already told me that you were ready to allow your mother’s soul to take its course. So it is not as if you were not ready to accept reality. Despite that, the Divine has promised you that your mother will recover. Give me one reason why I should make such a promise to fool you? Of course your mother will be fine. You watch it, she will be discharged in 3 days and she will return home in a regular vehicle and not by ambulance.”

I drew a lot of strength from those words and kept on praying along with my sisters.

Now, God has promised and the miracle has to happen – and they did, many of them. The doctor was flummoxed with the erratic nature of my mother’s sugar levels and BP levels. They soon decided to stop giving her all the medicines prescribed by the psychiatrists. They kept her in the ICU and finally realized that she was suffering from Urinary Infection and nothing more. They suddenly decided to send her home directly from the ICU as it was not required for her to remain there any longer.

On Saturday, my sisters were amazed as my mother spoke to them so clearly. Even I got to talk to her on the phone. She was so clear and enquired about everyone at home. She spoke long about everyone – all relatives, neighbours and others. It was simply amazing how she suddenly became alright. Science has no explanation for this.

She returned home by a call taxi and is doing alright at home. There is a bit of weakness, but her clarity has not reduced one iota.



Thursday, April 19, 2012


I attended the Super Process at the Oneness Temple from March 1 to 3, 2012. Whenever I have attended courses at Oneness University, I get a number of visions and many experiences. This time round, I had just one vision and no experience at all. But then, the Oneness Processes very rarely get completed during the course. They continue even after we return home.

About a couple of weeks after getting back to Mumbai, I was lying down on the sofa in my hall in front of the Srimurti. It was at about 10.30 am and I was not feeling too energetic and that’s why I was lying in that position praying that Amma Bhagavan help me.

Suddenly, I saw Amma and Bhagavan sitting on my right side. Bhagavan told me that He was going to give me healing and remove all the blocks in my system. Amma silently slid under my head and held me in her lap. Bhagavan placed his hands on my stomach, much to my surprise. He explained that the blocks are generally embedded in the abdomen and hence He needed to give me healing there.

I thought that this process will happen for a few minutes and settled down to just receive it. After about an hour, I realized that a lot of time had passed and Bhagavan was still giving me deeksha. I suddenly felt sorry for Amma holding my heavy head and shoulders on her lap for such a long time. The moment this thought came into me, Amma said, “I am perfectly fine Sundari, you just relax.” Tears rolled down my face at the love both Amma and Bhagavan have for me and how hard they were working at removing my blocks.

Another thought came into me that I had not eaten anything since morning. The moment this thought came, Bhagavan said, “All the better to receive the deeksha. It works best on an empty stomach.” There was no arguing that, of course.

I needed to use the toilet twice in the middle of the process. Both times, Bhagavan was kind enough to let me go, while both of them awaited my return. I love you AB!

Finally, it was 2.40 pm when Bhagavan lifted His hands from my stomach. He told me that it had taken that long to remove all the vasanas from all of my 525 plus the present 526th janam on this earth. I could well understand that.

Amma and Bhagavan left after completing their work and I got up with aching arms and legs. A few days went on with me expecting thundering miracles in my life. After about 10 days, my mind started playing. I could see myself sliding into a breakdown while my mind pointed out what all Amma Bhagavan could have done to improve my life and had not despite removing ALL the blocks.

I started fighting with Bhagavan when I was doing my namaskarams at night when I suddenly stopped. I told Amma Bhagavan that I will not talk to them while they could talk to me and that I will just do their ‘naama japa’ until some earth-shattering miracle happened in my life.

After a day had passed, I began to realize that I had been pushed into doing this by the Divine Himself. Over the next four days, whenever I woke up, instead of talking to AB as I usually do, I began chanting ‘Amma Bhagavan’ or ‘Moola Mantra’ or kept saying ‘Muruga Muruga’. I also did this whenever my mind began to say something. I did not allow it to talk at all. This continued even during the time I woke up in the middle of the night.

At the end of the fourth day, the earth did shatter around me - I felt such a powerful sense of peace steal over me. I have never felt such peace in my memory. And something else also had happened. I was in total BREAKTHROUGH. I have felt myself in breakthrough and breakdown states many times. It had always seemed like the movement of the pendulum – going back and forth. My Breakthrough states have remained for about 3-4 days at one stretch, at the most.

Today, the state I am in is entirely God given. Every day, I thank Amma Bhagavan for keeping me in Breakthrough over the past 24 hours and at the same time request them to continue keeping me in Breakthrough for the next 24 hours. Nothing else, just that!



Sunday, April 15, 2012


Well, the truth is that Bhagavan is in total charge of my entire life, all aspects of it. But I plan to write about how He helps me in the kitchen on this blog and hence the title.

After getting into the habit of talking to Bhagavan 24/7, I began to ask him for advice every time I made something in the kitchen. There are a number of times Bhagavan gave me suggestions even without asking.

Like He used to tell me to use green chillies instead of red, to use or not use ginger or garlic or some other flavouring in a particular dish.

This used to happen some years ago. There were many times when I never felt the energy to do any cooking and have been too bored with the idea. Sometimes, Bhagavan used to convince the family to go out for dinner or order food from outside – that is, the idea used to come from someone else in the family as I felt guilty about suggesting eating outside too often.

But, over a period of time, whenever I entered the kitchen in a bored state and prayed to Bhagavan, I used to suddenly feel energized and started enjoying cooking stuff and made interesting recipes. I have always enjoyed cooking but somehow a few years back I had lost interest. Bhagavan healed that completely and nowadays, whenever I go into the kitchen, I do so with great enthusiasm.

Bhagavan has taught me a number of recipes that I have never heard of before. A couple of examples are Pickled Green Chillies & Aromatic Carrot Soup.

There are a number of times when there is an imbalance of flavours in the dishes I make – like it turns out too spicy or sour or salty. I just request Bhagavan to set it right and He does that – sometimes by giving me suggestions for rectifying the same and many-a-time by miracle. And of course, I like the latter method the best.

I am simply amazed at the number of times the excess salt has disappeared from many dishes with a small request to My Dear Bhagavan!


Thursday, April 12, 2012


I had this experience after my Antaryaamin had awakened within me. One day, I felt very disconnected with God and did not like the feeling at all. But I realized that I could not do much about it.

As I went for my walk, I asked Bhagavan, “What has happened Bhagavan? Why have you gone so far away from me? I am feeling low and left out without the connection with you.” I felt very sad about this.

Bhagavan smiled and said, “Even the mother cuts away the umbilical cord when the child is born. But God never disconnects with his children. You are my child and I am always there with you. If you feel a distancing at all, it is the work of the mind and even then you have probably moved 1/100th of an inch away from me. I never move away from you. Remember that always!”

This is the love God has for all of us – his children.



Wednesday, April 11, 2012


Throughout my life, from the time I can remember, I have always questioned rituals. It is not that I am against them; I only want to understand the reason for doing something.

One of those was ‘Upvaas’. I have seen my grandmother fasting when I was a kid. I have seen the pressure she was under, how tired she used to get and irritated many times. I began to wonder why she underwent this torture and whether God insisted on it. Whereas I had never seen my mother fast as she insisted that she could never do it and hence will not.

Later, when I broke my ankle, my Periamma (mother’s elder sister) told me that the Guru in my horoscope was not positioned well at that point in time and told me to fast on Thursdays. I wanted to get my ankle healed speedily and so followed the fast. My sister Lakshmi had come to help me at that time as I was on crutches. She also followed the upvaas with me.

Upvaas for me was having only water. I somehow could not relate to upvaas food items. I mean no offence to those who do, but that’s the way I understood things. We both used to fast on water and have one meal after 6 pm – sunset actually.

Those days, I remember how tough I found it. I could not stop fasting as I felt it was required to heal my ankle completely. I followed this for about 20 months of Thursdays and believe me it was pure hell, every single Thursday.

Later, when anyone spoke to me about upvaas, I used to say, “Why take upvaas? Has God decreed it?” Since no one had an answer for that, I went on eating my way through life.

After My Antaryaamin came into action, my life kept evolving on a daily basis. One day, I wanted something to happen very badly. I can’t recall what this was. I was so keen that I told Bhagavan, “I think I will take a fast today.”

Bhagavan grinned and asked me, “Why Sundari? Why do you want to take a fast? Has your God decreed it or what?” My Antaryaamin Bhagavan has a high sense of humour and I just love Him for it.

I took him very seriously and thought about it, because this was exactly the question that I had asked a number of times of a number of people. Today, the Divine had turned the tables on me, obviously to make me think.

I said, “I don’t know Bhagavan. I feel that if I fast and focus on this matter, it will happen immediately.”

Bhagavan replied, “Exactly. That’s why one does an upvaas. And that’s exactly why one should take an upvaas – to focus on something. Understand this, when you want something very strongly, upvaas is one way of achieving it. When you are strongly focused, you will never feel hungry during the upvaas. Even going into a hotel or a kitchen will not tempt you to eat. In fact, you are so focused on what you are trying to achieve that your whole system shuts everything else out. At that time, doing an upvaas is the simplest thing. Just drink water, not even coffee or tea, no fruits, no vegetables – cooked or raw, no fruit juices, no salt-free foods, just nothing. Have only water and focus on the thing that you want and see how both your upvaas and your desire work out.”

I was thoroughly convinced. Who wouldn’t be with the Divine advising? And again, what clarity!

Till date, I take an upvaas when I feel like, only after asking Bhagavan. If it is workable, I am able to go through the day without feeling a single hunger pang or any kind of temptation. What I understood from Bhagavan is that feeling the urge to eat in itself nullifies the fast as the focus shifts.

There are times when I decide to take a fast and after a couple of hours find that I am tempted to eat. I go ahead and eat, breaking the fast immediately. There are other times I feel hungry and then again I break the upvaas.

Bhagavan says that when our focus is completely on what we want, the fast automatically happens. We should never force ourselves. Taking the help of the Divine helps in this; absolutely.

While I hear a number of devotees attend so many courses at the Oneness University – the same courses many times in a number of cases – I have attended very few courses. This is partly by choice, partly by chance and mainly by the Divine Will.

Three weeks before I went for Maha Deeksha in April 2008, Bhagavan put me on fast. He never told me the duration in advance. When I got up in the morning one day, He told me to go on fast that day. The next day, I was off fasting. The third day, He told me to fast again. After a few days, I realized that I was fasting every alternate day before attending the course. I was absolutely prepared and thanks to His guidance, I was in total Mouna during the whole course and had some earth-shattering experiences.

Bhagavan showed me not just the power of fasting, He also showed me the way one should fast and also the need to have a reason for fasting – the main focus actually.


Monday, April 9, 2012


I asked Bhagavan one day long ago: “I know we offer food items, fruits, etc. as Prasad to you, we offer money in your temple hundi, we garland you with flowers, we chant mantras, so on and so forth. But I feel that you, as God, have everything; you actually don’t need anything from us. So, all these things that we offer you are actually for our satisfaction while you already have everything. So, what can I do to make you happy Bhagavan? What can I offer you, really?”

Bhagavan said simply, “I just want you to make your SELF happy. I want nothing else.”

I could not stop my eyes from watering when I heard this. I remember I was sitting in the front seat of the top half of a double-decker bus many years back. I was absolutely amazed at that simple and loving reply.

Bhagavan showed yet again HOW MUCH HE LOVES US ALL! We must so realize here that we are all his creations and He wants our happiness more than we do.


Thursday, April 5, 2012


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This is one more experience given by my Antaryaamin. One day, as I was coming home from my evening walk, Bhagavan told me to go back home and go into Shavaasan before the Srimurti.

I did that and within a few minutes, I felt Bhagavan’s presence near my head. He raised his hands in a blessing and I could see circular lights of energy running from my feet, rising up to my body and reaching my head.

This happened many times and Bhagavan explained that he was energizing me. He also told me that energy travelled from the feet to the head. I had not been aware of this but later got to know about this from someone. As usual, Bhagavan followed up his talk within me with proof.

After this process was over, I saw my heart glow – green gold in colour. It looked so beautiful and I was so fascinated. Bhagavan explained that it was my heart chakra that was glowing.

Suddenly, my heart opened and I saw bright gold within. I blinked mentally and saw it again and again - the green gold heart opening like a jewel box and the golden glow within it.

Just as I wondered what it was, I heard Amma saying, “That’s me Sundari. I am the gold that you see encased in your heart.” I was truly amazed and thrilled to hear that. It felt so great having Amma tell me that She lived within my heart.

Many months later, when I visited my friend Anu in Ahmedabad, I shared this experience with her. Anuradha Chandrashekhar is my childhood friend and she is the one who introduced me to Amma Bhagavan. Anu asked me, “Sundari, have you heard of the jyothi (light) that resides within our hearts?” I said, “No, I have not heard of that.”

She replied, “That’s what Amma Bhagavan had been showing you in that vision.” Proof is what the mind seeks in this world and proof is what my Amma Bhagavan keep sending me, every time.

To this day, I keep seeing this vision in my inner eye and I can’t help feeling thrilled about it.


Thursday, March 29, 2012


I used to feel the pressure of Being Punctual 24/7. This was years ago, before Bhagavan intervened in my life, of course.

I remember that I used to keep checking the clock or my watch every few minutes to ensure that things got done on time and I should not get late.

Most of the time, I managed to get things done very much on time. There were some times when I have been a few minutes late and these were the instances I used to drive myself crazy.

After Bhagavan took over my life as my Antaryaamin, things became different. He pulled me out of this pressure in a humorous fashion.

One day, the clock in my kitchen stopped working. I changed the batteries, but it stopped again after a couple of days. I realized that it would not work and just threw it away. Somehow, I never got around to buying a new one.

Soon, the clock in my bedroom stopped working and the same things followed as before.

Then it was the turn of the hall clock, then my watch. Many of my friends and family have noticed and commented on how I never wear a watch. The Sundari of yonder days used to go to sleep wearing a watch.

I soon realized that I had no easy access to finding the time. I asked Bhagavan, “Why?”

He said simply, “You are always in a state of tension trying to stick to time. Just talk to me and do your work. Everything will get done without pressure.”

I listened and followed but there is this sense of habit and the mind – there was no escape at that point from either. I kept feeling the need to check the time even after all this.

I was a mite worried about buying an expensive watch – I used to wear a Titan gold-plated watch that got spoilt. By now, there were no clocks in the hall, my bedroom and kitchen. The clock in my kids’ room never got spoilt as Bhagavan said that I spent the least time there. He was simply amazing, the way He went about changing my life for the better.

I purchased a simple watch for Rs. 300 (this was in 2003) and wore it. It lasted for exactly 2 days. I went and had a fight with the shopkeeper in Sion, not quite aware that it was the Divine’s play. I went to another shop and got one more watch in the same range. That also broke down in a couple of days. Amazing, isn’t it?

I told this story to my friend Pooja. She told me, “Sundari, don’t waste any more money on buying watches. I have an old watch that has never stopped in 9 years. I have a new one that I use now. I keep this because my father had given it to me. This does not run on batteries and you have to wind it up every day. Nothing can go wrong with it.” Neither of us knew Bhagavan’s plans at that point.

I took the watch from her and wore it. It ran for a bit longer this time – 3 days. The watch that had never stopped working in 9 years, stopped in just 3 days the moment it came to me. Frustrated, I gave it back to Pooja. You might find this difficult to believe, but the watch started working within 24 hours of leaving my possession.

That’s when I finally accepted that Bhagavan is not going to allow me to wear a watch. What we must understand here is that He was not forcing His Will on me. He was helping me get rid of the tension clock-watching was giving me.

Within a couple of months, I so got used to telling Bhagavan to handle things, get things ready on time and do the work. It works like magic to this day – everything gets done at the right time, without tension. I can guess the time correctly at any given point in time, without breaking a blood vessel over it. I am at peace. What more can I ask?

Today, I so well understand it when my Antaryaamin Bhagavan says, “Break habits Sundari. Those are the work of the ancient mind. You fall into a pattern and keep doing things without paying attention to them. Then you slide into a rut. Break habits and keep doing things differently. If you don’t know how, ask me.”

After all, I am sure you can understand, this is advice from the DIVINE.

Today, I keep telling myself that I would like to purchase a watch for decorative purposes, but never have the heart to buy one. There are clocks in the hall and my bedroom. I very rarely feel the urge to turn and look at them. I don’t think in terms of numbers when it comes to time. I have left it to the Divine to organize my timetable.

I make vague plans and inform Bhagavan. Many things get done, some don’t. And I always know that the things that are the best and most important for me always get done, at the RIGHT TIME. He takes care of it, diligently and with unconditional love.


Tuesday, March 27, 2012


My son Vigneshkumar

As I keep saying repeatedly, I have designed my own God.

Check this link on how to DESIGN YOUR GOD

I have been praying to God that nothing should get lost from my home and no one should steal any of our things. Bhagavan has always taken care of this.

But I am sure you are all able to relate to how the ancient mind works hard to confuse us and break our faith.

My son Vignesh was still in school and he had to reach there by 8.50 am. I had made 5 sets of uniforms to use one per day so that there is no problem with the washing and ironing.

This happened on a Friday. Vignesh had looked for his uniform pants four times in his cupboard, but could not locate it.

I went to search for it and did not find it either. My mind started working furiously. ‘Could the Isthariwala have misplaced it?’ Bhagavan from within me said, “None of your things can get lost. The pants are very much at your home.”

I checked again but could not find it. Vignesh was getting late and I thought to myself, “Could the Isthariwala have stolen it? He is a nice guy and never steals, but what in case he has got tempted this once?”

Bhagavan said, “Your things not getting stolen does not need to depend on someone else being a thief or not. You have prayed that nothing of yours should be stolen and nothing will be. The pants are right there hanging in the cupboard. Go look now. It is the fifth garment from the right.”

OH MY GOD! Yes, of course the pants were right there where Bhagavan mentioned they would be. But Vignesh and I had checked that same place so many times. But we never found the pants.

I understood that the Divine wanted to playfully teach me something – that I should have faith in my own prayers. And more importantly, GOD ANSWERS ALL OUR PRAYERS!

THANK YOU BHAGAVAN for so much love and guidance!

Saturday, March 24, 2012


Oneness Temple
I had been to the Oneness Temple at Varadaiapalem to attend the Super Process of Oneness University on March 1, 2 & 3, 2012.

I had the least number of experiences during this process and that was a first for me. I have always had a number of visions and experiences at the processes I have attended at the Oneness University.

I need to mention here that during the Vara Yagna that I attended at Nemam in 1997 (this was the first time I attended a course at Oneness University), I had had a number of visions. One of them was about the city we lived in at that point. I asked Bhagavan to show me the future of Mumbai in about 10 years’ time. I closed my eyes to see a number of flyovers all over the city. That was a time when there was only the King’s Circle flyover and none other. I was amazed. Soon after I returned to Mumbai, there were plans afoot to build the Sion flyover. That was the beginning. As you can see today, Mumbai has a number of flyovers, making the vision absolutely true. Now, I am sure you can understand why I set store by my visions.

The guide who was conducting the course asked us to go into Shavasan and instructed us to ask our antaryaamin Amma Bhagavan about the state of the Oneness Temple in the future. He gave us four different dates for the same.

I requested Bhagavan to show me the state of the Oneness Temple in four different years as suggested by the guide.


I saw a number of awakened beings meditating in the prayer hall at the temple. Amidst them were – I first saw Mother Teresa, then Shirdi Saibaba, Lord Ganpati, Lord Muruga, Lord Hanuman, Lord Jesus and Archangel Michael also present in the prayer hall. Most surprisingly, along with all these beings, was present US President Barack Obama. I am looking forward to this incident happening before the end of this year.


I saw a number of human beings enter the Oneness Temple Mukti Mandap from the left and the same people coming out as Golden Beings from the right. It was an amazing sight. A vision keeps repeating if we are not too sure or are too fascinated that we want to see it again. I saw this a few times - people walking in as normal ‘you’ and ‘me’ and coming out the other side as Golden Beings. Simply amazing!


I saw a huge male lion roaming the garden of the Oneness Temple. The lion was absolutely tame and friendly and was basically frolicking on the grass happily, like a friendly kitten.


There were a lot of visitors at the Oneness Temple. They were reading the literature on the walls of the temple and discussing the matter mentioned there. People were telling one another about how this temple had been set up by Amma Bhagavan and how humanity attained ‘Jeevan Mukti’ from here only. They also were talking about the history of the place and how Golden Age came about on earth. I just loved it.

Thursday, March 15, 2012


Muni works at my home and I have known her since a little more than 20 years. She works at 4-5 homes and had invested her hard earned money through one of her employers.

Unfortunately for her, this person had taken 50000 rupees from her and had invested it in their own name and had not added Muni’s name to the investment. Muni had not consulted anyone about it and was shocked to be told that her money was not hers for the taking.

She was so upset. She had probably taken a few years to save that amount and this happened at least 4 years ago. Muni was sure that she will never get the money back. You can imagine her horror as she must have worked so hard and for so long to save that amount.

She told me her sad story and was quite upset while doing so. I told her to pray to Amma Bhagavan and also talked to her about doing Shashtang Namaskaram.

With absolute faith, Muni used to do the namaskarams and pray to Amma Bhagavan. After a few months, she came grinning to me and told me that she got her money back fully. She was keen to share 1000 rupees with Amma Bhagavan for retrieving her hard earned cash.

The super-thrilled Muni also went for a darshan of the Mukti Mandapam at Oneness. To this day, she is amazed at Amma Bhagavan’s benevolence.


Wednesday, March 14, 2012


I had been to the Oneness University for the Super Process on March 1, 2 & 3, 2012. Bhagavan performed this miracle for me there.

This was on the third day. I forgot to take my water bottle from the bus when we got off at the Oneness Temple. I directly went to class as it was 5 am in the morning and the shop there was not open.

We had our breakfast break at 9.15 am and were asked to get back to class by 10 am. It was 9.55 when I finished breakfast. I thought it was not practical to walk to the shop, get water and then go to the temple for the class in time. I had a tall glass full of water in the dining room and told Bhagavan to take care of everything and went directly to class.

I went into shavaasan before the guide came. Dasaji came in about ten minutes later. When I got up, I saw a full bottle of cold water near my handbag that I had kept beside a huge pillar. It was so tempting. But I did not drink as I was sure it belonged to someone else.

I went to the front of the class and listened to Dasaji’s lecture. It lasted about an hour. I was extremely thirsty at the end of it. I was just wondering whether to take water from someone when I heard Bhagavan from within me.

“Why don’t you drink from that bottle that I kept for you near your bag?”

I said, “Bhagavan, that must belong to someone else. How can I take it without asking that person?”

Bhagavan smiled and said, “That bottle of water is for you. I had brought it and kept it there as you did not have the time to pick one for yourself before class. Go and see behind the pillar. The bottle is still there.”

“The mind is ugliness” says Bhagavan and that’s the truth. My mind was working furiously. How was it possible? There will definitely be no bottle of water near the pillar.

So thinking, I walked to the pillar that was many feet behind. Lo and behold! The water bottle was still there, waiting for me, just as Bhagavan had said. And as usual, He brought along extra proof for my suspicious mind. The water was just as cold after one hour of being in the warm hall between 10 am and 11 am. Can you beat that?

I recalled Dasaji’s words that morning, “Bhagavan will soon do things for you even before you ask for them.”



Thursday, February 23, 2012


In the earlier blog, I told you how Amma guided me to get a job with Mumbai Mirror. Click here to read that one. I have to mention the interview that I attended before I got the job and Bhagavan’s hand in it.

I went to the TOI office on a Tuesday for the interview. I went upstairs to the third floor where the HR department was situated and waited along with a few others.

My turn came in a short while and Sagorika met me. I gave her my name and sat down. She asked me what I had come for. I told her that she had called me for an interview and that’s why I was there. She looked at me up and down and asked, “Do you have a copy of your biodata? I don’t remember calling you.”

I was rather startled. I need to mention here that the HR department at TOI is quite efficient and I don’t really know how I got a call for the interview from Sagorika and she could not recall the incident. It did make me wonder whether Bhagavan had something to do with it.

I gave her the neat copy that I was carrying with me. She went through it, asked someone to give me a test and asked a few more questions and told me to wait. After half an hour, Sagorika confirmed that I had a job with Mumbai Mirror as the Copy Editor of the Listings pages. I was zapped, to put it mildly.

I went and met the features editor and then the editor of Mirror. Everything sailed through.

I had left my last job at the school before five years and my final salary had been Rs. 7,000. I had no clue what newspapers paid for jobs like mine. I asked Bhagavan what the right amount would be.

I could feel Bhagavan at my shoulder as he whispered to me, “Ask for Rs. 20,000”.

I am sure you can imagine my shock. I was 44 years old, a B.Com, with just three years of work experience in a school administration. Why would they pay me so much? Even today, I am surprised how they took a commerce graduate in. I did very well in my job is all thanks to Bhagavan, of course.

I argued with Bhagavan throughout the time I waited. That was for about 20 minutes. I told him that even Rs. 10,000 would be too much. What if they told me that I was asking too much and did not give me the job? My self-confidence was not at its best.

Bhagavan, as usual, was very insistent and told me that I should not accept a rupee less than Rs. 20,000.

The argument was not over when I was back at Sagorika’s desk to discuss money. She asked me what I expected. I was scared of opening my mouth while Bhagavan continued to whisper the amount in my ear.

I told Sagorika, “I have been out of the job market for a while and schools are not great paymasters. Can you tell me what you are ready to pay?”

My first surprise came when she told me, “Rs. 15,000” and wrote it on the paper she was writing my details on.

Bhagavan said, “Ask for Rs. 20,000, she will agree. Don’t accept Rs. 15,000”.

It was true that it was God giving me the advice. But I was too scared and my heart was beating too hard within me.

Bhagavan would just not let me agree to what Sagorika was offering. I told her softly, “The timings are also strange as you want me to come in at 12 noon and work till 8 pm. Can you make that Rs. 20,000?”

Sagorika did not open her mouth. She took her pen, struck the amount that she had written originally and wrote Rs. 20,000 immediately.

Sagorika’s parting shot was, “So, you are joining the day-after-tomorrow, right? Please don’t ditch us. The features editor is desperate for an assistant.”

How do you like that?


Ananta Kodi Pranam to my DEAR AMMA BHAGAVAN!

Wednesday, February 22, 2012


This was sometime in June 2005. I had returned from that trip in Chennai when Bhagavan had insisted that I give money at the temple. Click here for that story.

I was not aware of Bhagavan’s plans for me. I had given the money away at the temple without expecting any return. I was slowly sliding into a breakdown as I had no job and being a quiet housewife was just not me. I had written three novels by now and they were not getting published either. The family was running only on my husband’s income and it was not easy.

One day, Amma came in front of me and said, “Sundari, you do 11 shashtang namaskarams every day, in front of the Srimurti. See how your life changes after that.”

In those days, although I prayed to Amma, I could not connect with her as much as I could to Bhagavan. It took me a long time to realize that they both are one and the same. Whenever there was a need for transformation in my outer world, Amma used to talk to me. Otherwise, most of the time, the need was in the inner world and that’s why the connection with Bhagavan.

About the namaskarams

I started doing them right from the day Amma told me to. This was on a Thursday.

In those days, my daughter had done an intern’s job for Mumbai Mirror during her summer holidays. The BMM course that she was doing demanded that the students work during the summer and show a certificate for the same. She had gone to the TOI building to collect her salary and certificate and I had just accompanied her. This was Friday, the second day of my namaskarams.

Not realizing the divine plan, I just happened to give a crumpled copy of my biodata at the Times of India office in CST. I had been on the lookout for a job since five years and used to carry a biodata with me at all times. The dispatch clerk told me to leave it with him. I did not even have an envelope or a covering letter. I just decided to leave it there on an impulse.

The namaskarams continued. On Monday (Day 5), I got a call from the HR of TOI to go there for an interview. I just could not believe it. I asked that lady over and over to confirm things and also asked her for her name. Her name was Sagorika and I was not familiar with such a name and requested her to spell it for me.

I went for the interview on Tuesday and got a job with Mumbai Mirror on that very same day and joined worked on the Thursday.

Can you believe the power of namaskarams? Amma gave me a lot of gyaan about it much later.

I asked her, “Why is it that men do shashtang namaskarams while women just do namaskarams? You have given me this advice and I have followed it. It’s brought transformation into my life. But all women don’t do shashtang namaskarams. The Hindu religion does not encourage it.”

I could not but recall Bhagavan’s teaching, “You have to unlearn everything that you have learned”.

Amma said, “Shashtang Namaskarams are a means of surrendering yourself to the divine will. In yonder days, both men and women used to do it. But when men thought that women might become superior to them in everything, they felt threatened and changed the way women prayed. That’s why this came about. Usually, surrender needs to happen in the inner world. But what happens is that you cannot take any action in the inner world. You can only be aware that you don’t have surrender. When you seek surrender from deep within, doing namaskarams in the outer world gives it a push to get you closer to the surrender state. And then, the whole universe is yours.”

Amma had transformed my world that simply!


Tuesday, February 21, 2012


This happened in May 2005. Amma used to give public darshan at Nemam in those days. I went to Chennai for a couple of weeks and managed to go to Nemam on three different occasions to take Her darshan.

This was during my third visit. I was to leave Chennai in two days’ time and was running low on cash. Venkat had just settled into his new business and I had no job. I always had the habit of keeping Rs. 500 over and above what expenses I expected during every outing.
Bhagavan looked like this in my vision, only tall
enough to touch the skies. And his right hand was
extended towards me

A few minutes before I reached the Nemam Temple premises, Bhagavan spoke from within me. He told me, “Sundari, you put that 500 rupee note in the Hundi when you reach the temple.”

My relationship with Bhagavan was and is very comfortable and He is my BEST FRIEND. I could be free in saying anything to my SUPREME FRIEND.

I replied, “No, Bhagavan. I think I will run short on cash. I will not put that cash in the temple. I need it till I get back to Mumbai.”

You might find it difficult to believe that Bhagavan insisted repeatedly that I do as He said. I had given Him total freedom in interfering in my life. Otherwise, the Antaryaamin never gives uninvited advice.

When I also refused repeatedly, something happened suddenly to shake me up. I could see Bhagavan standing tall, rising up to the skies in the form called ‘Vishwaroopam’. He stretched his right hand and said, “Give me the money, Sundari”. How could I refuse? I put the money in the Hundi and went home.

I have heard a lot of people say, ‘why do they ask for money at the temple?’ And I am sure many will wonder ‘how can God ask for money from someone, and that too demand?’

The answer to this is very simple. When we give money out, the universe returns it many times over. In fact, whatever we sow, we reap many times over. The Divine had decided it was time for me to get a lot of money had set the ball rolling in this fashion.

I have to mention here the way I pray. I always say that “Bhagavan loves me a million times as much as I love him”. That’s the ratio of our relationship.

So, after insisting that I pay the 500 rupees at the temple, Bhagavan set out to return that money – a million times over. He is still returning it, in fact. He found me a job, in cahoots with Amma (all divine planning, there is another story in that) and got me a huge salary. I neither had the qualification nor experience for that.


*Yaashakam is asking for alms

Monday, February 20, 2012


Venkat is able to bend his elbow completely
My husband Venkat had an accident when he was walking near Cinemax Multiplex, Sion. A car came out of the theatre just as he was going to cross and he fell down. Venkat broke his elbow as it cracked on the platform.

We went to an excellent orthopedic who said that Venkat needed to be operated on and a small piece of bone at his elbow will need to be removed, as it was completely broken. The doctor also said that Venkat will never get normal movement on his right arm and will not be able to bend the arm or touch his shoulder with his hand ever.

I had absolute trust in my AMMA BHAGAVAN and just prayed that they take care of everything. Venkat underwent the surgery and was discharged the same day. While the doctor had said that he might have to remain in the hospital for 2 days, Venkat came home the same day as the doctor was convinced that I could take care of him.

Venkat recovered quite fast and soon went for physiotherapy. While the physiotherapist was confident that she will be able to bring about maximum movement to his elbow, even she was promising about 80%.

But then, neither of them knew the miraculous healing and love given by Sri Amma Bhagavan. Venkat got completely healed and his arm works 100% and he has never missed that small piece of bone that was removed from his elbow.


Sunday, February 19, 2012


Tirupati Balaji

I keep getting visions on and off. They are very clear. One day, I was feeling emotional that my sisters living in Chennai got a lot of opportunities to take the darshan of Lord Venkateswara at Tirupati. I very rarely got to go there and I felt quite sad about it.

As I was thinking of Lord Venkatramana with tears in my eyes, I suddenly saw him in my vision. He was standing in my kitchen. The Lord was so big that He was almost touching the ceiling and was so wide that He filled the breadth of the kitchen floor. He looked exactly as He does at Tirupati.

I told the Lord that I was feeling very upset that I could not visit Tirupati more often. He asked me, “Why do all of you want to visit me at Tirupati? Why don’t you call me home? I would love to come visit you.”

I was startled to hear this – the Lord was ready to come home and visit me instead of my making the effort to go to Tirupati.

I asked the Lord, “What prasadham do you like, Bhagavan? I will keep that ready for you when you come.”

“I like anything that is given to me out of love. In fact, I see the four of you sitting together for dinner every day and feel the urge to join you. I like ‘Thayir Saadham’ (curd rice) more than anything else.”

I was thrilled with what He told me and asked Him to visit us whenever He wanted to.

This happened about 8 years ago. I met a school friend recently when I visited Chennai. When I told her about this vision, she told me something that simply amazed me.

My friend said, “Do you know, Sundari? At Tirupati, they make many types of prasadhams like Laddu, Pongal, Puliyodharai, etc. But every time, the prasadham that they offer the Lord is only ‘Thayir Saadham’.

Is anyone surprised when I say that I broke out in goose-pimples on hearing this?


Incidentally, Lord Balaji decided to come and live as close to me as possible and has taken abode in Sion. Click here to read more….

Saturday, February 18, 2012


I am not very sure how long ago this happened. My Antaryaamin was very active by then. Vignesh and I went on a trip to Tirupati along with my sister and brother-in-law by their car. We left Chennai early in the morning to reach the temple about noon.

We tried for special darshan and what not and nothing seemed to be working. Finally, my BIL took a decision to do a special puja costing Rs. 2000 and we got four passes to have the darshan of Lord Balaji too. The puja went off very well and then we had to get into the queue when we saw a board saying that mobiles were not allowed inside.

My BIL had a mobile phone. We were not too keen to leave it at the counter outside as we were very sure that collecting it after the darshan would probably take away precious time and delay our return to Chennai further.

When we were wondering how to avoid it, my sister suddenly told me to pray and we decided to go inside with the mobile switched off. We did not foresee the x-ray machine at the security window. All this was quite new at Tirupati in those days.

I told Amma Bhagavan that we were going in with the cell phone and no one should catch or stop us. We were anyway not planning to use the phone inside. On my sister’s instructions, I took the mobile instrument and put it inside my hand-bag where I usually carry at least one Srimurti.

Lo and behold! The x-ray machine did not show the mobile instrument in my bag. Sounds incredible? But that is the truth.

We had a super darshan and came out. My BIL could not believe that it could have been a miracle. He thought that maybe the security guards just missed seeing the phone. I asked Bhagavan how it could be proved to him. I pulled the mobile out to give it to my BIL and he was amazed to find that it had been switched on. By the way, in those days, I had absolutely no knowledge of mobiles and could not have switched it on to safe my life.

Bhagavan laughingly told me that He had switched it on to make my BIL believe in the miracle.

I was truly amazed at Bhagavan’s love and humorous nature! Yeah, He can be quite mischievous and I just love that quality of Bhagavan's.


Friday, February 17, 2012



My parents live in Chennai. About four years ago, a Christian woman used to do the house work at their home.

The lady’s daughter’s wedding was fixed and she was very happy when she brought an invitation to my parents.

A few days later, the same woman was in tears when she came to my mother and said, “My daughter has been diagnosed with tumour. She has a lump on her breast and the doctor insists that we cancel the wedding immediately. He also says that the tumour could be malignant. She needs to be hospitalized immediately for further tests.”

My mother gave her Amma Bhagavan’s Srimurti that had the Moola Mantram written on it in Tamil. She told the servant, “Amma & Bhagavan are Gods. I know you are a Christian and might not want to read the Moola Mantram. But the Srimurti is very powerful. Ask your daughter to keep it with her. She will become perfectly alright.”

The servant said, “My daughter can read. I will ask her to say this Mantram,” and took the Srimurti from my mother.

The girl had been saying the Moola Mantram and had been carrying the Srimurti with her when she was hospitalized almost immediately after.

On the first night at the hospital, while sleeping, the girl had a dream.

She was standing at a bus stop waiting for a bus. Suddenly, Amma (from the picture that she had with her) walked up to her, put her hand on the girl’s chest and pulled out something. Amma walked away without uttering a word.

The girl woke up in the morning and wondered what that was all about.

The doctor took her for further tests. They searched and searched for the lump that was just not there. They even did some more tests to find that the girl was completely normal.

It has been almost five years since this incident. The girl is happily married and a mother to boot.


Thursday, February 16, 2012


Sabitha - long ago and recently
This happened some time in 2003. My sister Sabitha had been wearing specs since her school days. My Antaryaamin had been communicating clearly within me and I had been getting a lot of messages and lessons since January 2003.

One day, during my evening walk, I could see Amma in front of me. She told me, “You are so keen on healing people, why don’t you give healing to your sister’s eyes?”

I asked Amma, “Sabi is living in Chennai. I am here at Mumbai. How can I give healing? I need to be near her and touch her when I do that.”

Amma smiled and said, “You can give her distant healing. In fact, do it just now, as you are walking.”

Believe it or not, that’s exactly what I did. I prayed for Sabitha’s eyesight.

It was around 5.30 pm when I gave distant healing to Sabitha’s eyes. At the same time, her specs fell down and broke to pieces. She had been watching a cricket match on TV at that time. She looked at the screen without her specs and was amazed to be able to read the score on the small screen.

Such was the miracle that Amma performed that day. Sabitha had been wearing specs since 1978 or so. After 25 years, her eyes got healed in a second due to Amma’s grace. Till today, Sabitha is able to work on the computer and also read without wearing spectacles.


Wednesday, February 15, 2012


My published novel
I know the title sounds very strange, but then, that is the truth. I had just quit my admin job at the school I had been working at. I was in a limbo as I had got used to keeping busy and I did not much care for so much time on my hands. I was vaguely looking for a job, but did not like the few that came my way.

I had a lot of time to journey within myself. And that’s exactly what I did. I have always loved reading and did a lot of that too. In fact, you could call me quite the book worm.

But during this period, I was in a constant state of irritation and nothing seemed to interest me. Yeah, even my best friend – the book. I used to communicate a lot with God, even though my Antaryaamin was not fully awakened within me. I used to communicate with Amma Bhagavan of Oneness University as I had realized that they were Avatars after a few experiences during the courses that I attended there.

During one of my walks, I was so disturbed and upset that I went on nagging Bhagavan to show me a way. I was literally boiling inside, not knowing which way to go. I did not know how to get rid of my frustration and there was just too much energy within me, without a direction.

It was a few years later that Bhagavan told me from within, “Sambar or Rasam tastes much better when it is boiled well. So, when emotions boil within you, the result is way better than something that is born without internal effort.” My God, that is so true.

That evening, I returned home, suddenly picked up some papers and started writing my first novel. Yeah, out of the blue. This was some time in August 2000.

I had always been useless when it came to writing. I speak English very well, but have always been terrible at writing essays, composition or any such, in school as well as in college. Later on, when I used to help my kids with their studies, I could teach them all the subjects, even Maths and Science as high as Std. IX (ICSE), but I just could not help them with their essays. My husband used to step in at those moments.

That same person, that’s ME, started writing a novel. I wrote 18 pages on A4 size ruled sheets. Can you believe that? It was a wonder for me too.

I recalled this Tamil film that I had seen as a kid – Saraswathi Sabadham. In that, Sivaji Ganesan played the role of an illiterate who cannot speak. By Goddess Saraswathi’s blessings, he begins talking suddenly and even becomes learned in a jiffy. I sincerely believe that my writing skills were born on those lines.

Today, I have a published novel and have worked at Mumbai Mirror, Timesgroup, for 2 years. Later, for about 5 ½ years, I worked at two different websites belonging to the CNBC Group – &

I am a freelancer now and run five blogs, all singlehanded. All this is due to Amma Bhagavan’s grace.

My Blogs:

Flaming Sun – Varied articles consisting of Film Reviews, Food Reviews, Travel, Spirituality, Health and more.

Cupid Strike Series – This is a romance novel series blog, where I have published my novels.

Rising Sun – This is a photo blog where I post one picture every day with a few words about what the picture means to me.

Shimmering Sun – Short Story blog. I had published ten short stories on Flaming Sun and you will find the links for them here. I have two more published on this blog. Hope to add more soon.

Ascension Miracles – This is my latest offering. Actually, this should have been the first as everything began here. This is all about my real life experiences, my learning and more as my Level of Consciousness increases with the changing energies propelling the Earth towards THE GOLDEN AGE.

I can only say THANK YOU GOD!

Tuesday, January 31, 2012


1. I am That

2. Consciousness is the playground where the higher and lower conscious are at play

3. Your choice aligns you to the higher or the lower conscious

4. Intent + Effort + Grace = Success

5. When you are focussed all things fall into place

6. Prayer is like an itch you send up the body of God

7. The best form of prayer is gratitude

8. Yad bhavam, tad bhavati – as you feel so shall it be

9. Prosperity and poverty begin with thought

10. All resistance to truth is due to failure of intelligence

11. Life is what you make of it – a school, a battlefield or a playground

12. A happy person creates a happy world while an unhappy person creates an unhappy world

13. Life is primarily governed by two needs – the need to love and the need to be loved

14. Life is relationships

15. The destructive tendencies of the lower conscious are silenced through the blessings of your parents

16. Judgement and evaluative processes cause suffering in relationships

17. Your children inherit not only what you earn but also what you are

18. Trying to pin point blame is like peeling an onion; you land up nowhere

19. Love thyself to love thy neighbour

20. Genuine affection is to be affected

21. A family that plays together, prays together and dines together, stays together

22. You reap what you sow and many times over

23. Fear is only in the anticipation, never in the actual

24. A breakdown state creates a breakdown reality while a breakthrough state creates a breakthrough reality

25. Do not let the situation determine your state; let your state determine the situation

26. A life without vision is like a journey without destination

27. You Co-create your destiny with God

Saturday, January 28, 2012

IN A NUTSHELL: CWG Book Series by Neale Donald Walsch

Neale Donald Walsch
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Regarding the Conversations with God by Neale Donald Walsh - I want to mention here some of the highlights that really impressed me from these three books.

There is no right or wrong as far as God is concerned.
The difference in good and evil exists only to show us what to choose for ourselves and also since we need a point of comparison. If evil does not exist we will never know the value of good.
Whatever happens in our life is something we have unconsciously or consciously chosen to happen.
There is nothing called sin. We are all playing roles in a worldwide drama. The script is written by us, the actors ourselves and the audience is God. He laughs with us, cries with us and feels each and every emotion that we do, just as we feel the emotions played by the various actors in a play or a film. And same as we feel detached when we leave the theatre, he feels detached once a particular show is over.
Death is not the end of existence. The soul lives on. In fact, the soul lives forever. There is no hell. The soul gets back to God the moment a body dies, just like a homing pigeon. That’s all there is to it. There is nowhere else to go.
God has only the ability to imagine and create. He cannot experience anything. That is why he has created human beings, in his image and enjoys the experience through them.
God loves us whatever we do; however we do it. But one thing He is clear about is, avoid hurting someone else.
We are made up of three parts – the body or the conscious, the mind or the subconscious and the soul or the super conscious. They all have different functions to perform.
The body is made to exist over a very long period of time. Hundreds of years, in fact. Drinking, smoking, etc. spoil the body. Otherwise they are not sins.
Eating flesh of animals - God says that He would not call it wrong. First of all, we do not have the power to kill animals. Only God has. If one particular chicken or pig or cow is killed and eaten, it is possible only because the soul in it has agreed to give its body away as food to someone.
Using silk or leather - Well, He says it is not wrong. Only the soul that feels the extreme need to reach God does not like the idea of unnecessary killing.
Suicide and abortion - He says that He does not consider suicide wrong since there is no wrong in the Kingdom of God. Abortion is not possible without the consent of that particular soul in the womb. It can be done only if the soul has come into that body on that particular agreement.
The mind exists in every single cell in the body. The average man uses barely 10% of his mind. Our modern education and our religions have made us so rigid and unbelieving that we cannot believe in the power of the mind.
The soul does not exist in the body. It only holds the body together. For those who have heard about the aura, well, that symbolizes the soul. The soul is basically a lover of freedom. It likes to be free and move wherever it pleases. It feels restricted in the body. That is why sleep has been created. During sleep, the soul takes off.
As we align the body, mind and soul and coordinate their operations, the need for sleep becomes less as the soul feels the freedom within the body itself.
The Devil does not exist. Religious bodies, to scare people into visiting churches or temples and take advice from the religious elders, created him.  This made them feel powerful.

Thursday, January 26, 2012


Guha and Lord Rama
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OLD DIARIES: Continued……………….

Another instance when I got a wonderful reply:

One day I was walking near the fish market that is very close to my flat. A sudden thought came into my mind.  Just a few months before this event, I had given up buying silk saris and leather handbags and even stopped eating cakes that have egg in them since I had reached the conclusion that killing for our pleasure is totally wrong. I thought, if my belief was right, how come Baghavan Ram had eaten fish that was offered by Guhan? I forgot this after a while [that is, once I left the stench of the fish market]. But God obviously had not forgotten my question. That very evening, my husband bought me a red rose and a black forest cake and went down on his knees and told me what a wonderful wife I was, etc. partly seriously and partly in joke. I thanked him and asked him if the cake contained egg. He looked bewildered and told me that it had not struck him to check. He only wanted to buy a black forest cake since he knew how much I liked it and had not thought of anything else. There was my reply. ‘What is given with love is to be accepted for what it is, without questions or conditions’.

And that’s what Lord Ram had done.