Amma Bhagavan Sharanam

Amma Bhagavan Sharanam
Amma Bhagavan Sharanam

Thursday, December 12, 2013


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Two things had been working on my mind over the past couple of weeks. After attending the 3-chamber process at Pooja’s home twice, I have been praying to Bhagavan to become a physical part of my household.

A thought struck me. I asked Bhagavan, “I treat you like Santa Claus. I keep asking and asking for things, the list is never ending. Even when You appear to me physically, it looks like I will be continuing to do that only. Is that the only relationship I have with you Bhagavan?

I did not like it at all.

Another thought followed, “I don’t feel gratitude from deep within me. While I am aware and do try hard to be grateful, it does not come naturally to me. I just say ‘thanks’ and immediately go to the next item on my list of requests.

I did not like this either.

I have been attending ‘Krishna Katha’ class conducted by Dr. Sneh Desai over the past two days. It’s a four-day class and I had missed the first day as I had not been aware of it. But of course, Bhagavan knows where to send me and when.

Sneh Desai had the answer to my questions, without my asking him, of course. He played Bhagavan’s messenger.

Dr. Desai said:

What is prayer? You stand before God and go on asking and asking and asking, like a beggar. Is that what prayer is?

The Divine knows what you require and He has already given it all to you. All you have to do is offer your gratitude.

Well said! But how to cultivate this attitude of gratitude? He had an answer for that as well.

We as people are not negative or positive. It is our attitudes. That’s because we focus on a string of incidences that affects our attitude. Create a diary where you make a note of every single thing that you can offer thanks to the Divine at the end of every day. What will happen over a period of time is that your focus will shift to all those good things that happen to you and your attitude changes to positive.

Maintaining a diary is a message I had been receiving since 2-3 weeks from my Antaryaamin. But I was just too lazy to follow it.

But when Sneh Desai said that Gratitude is the only form of prayer & the only way to cultivate the attitude is to maintain a diary, it finally sunk into me. Bhagavan finally got the message through to me and I already started writing my gratitude diary since last night.

Thank you Dr. Desai!


Wednesday, December 11, 2013


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About three weeks ago, I had very bad skin itching. Heat spots developed all over my body – red spots of varying sizes that kept itching.

Bhagavan told me that my skin was changing along with the DNA changes and He also said that I should be aware that I was fighting it. The moment I became aware of the fight, the mental irritation disappeared.

He also advised me not to use any medicines, and just a body lotion. There was no question of going to the doctor, of course. As we were planning a trip to Shirdi after a few days, Bhagavan told me to go make my peace with Sai Baba (as it had been many years since I visited or prayed to Sai Baba) and Bhagavan would set right my skin after some days.

Some of you might know that the weather in Shirdi is quite dry. Winter had set in at Mumbai and I expected Shirdi to be quite cold. It was not.

I was worried that the hard water might irritate my skin more. I just surrendered to Sai Baba and prayed that He take care of everything.

The two times I had a bath at the hotel, I prayed that the water be sanctified by Bhagavan and Sai Baba and pour on me as a blessing.

On Day 2, as I was having a bath, Sai Baba told me that the water was indeed blessing me. He said that I should not use any body lotion, just pray to God and leave things to Him. He also promised that the itching will stop.

Guess what! The itching never happened after that and the heat spots just disappeared.


Friday, November 15, 2013

Angapradakshinam @ Oneness Temple

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I have heard of Angapradakshinam in association with Tirupati Balaji. I have always wished that I should do the circumambulation of The Lord where one goes around the temple prahar rolling on the floor.

Bhagavan granted my wish when I got an opportunity to do Angapradakshinam at Oneness Temple during my Super Process. It was an amazing experience.

As usual, my mind had a question about this form of worship. I asked Bhagavan why we roll on the ground while circumambulating.

As always, He had a simple and amazing reply to my query.

Said Bhagavan:

See how the whole universe functions. The Planets rotate around themselves while revolving around The Sun. The Solar System does exactly the same while going around another star. So on and so forth……

Angapradakshinam is exactly the same. You rotate around yourself while revolving around God’s sanctum. This exercise is done to align yourself with the movement of the universe. It’s as simple as that.

What can I say! I had tears in my eyes as I heard this fantastically simple explanation from Bhagavan.


Wednesday, October 30, 2013


Pooja had organised one more Bhagawat Shaakshaatkaar process at her home on October 16, 2013. I had gone along with my maids Jaya and Muni. There were about a dozen of us for the process.

Pooja gave a small introduction and then we began to sing Bhajans. The moment I closed my eyes I could see Bhagavan standing in front of the altar at Pooja’s home. He appeared like he does in the single Srimurti of yonder days. He stood tall, touching the ceiling and I could see light emanating from all over Him.

I requested Bhagavan to bless us. Light left His person in glowing sparks and flew into us. I asked Him to shower His Grace on each one of us. I could see the sparks coming towards each one of us and entering our Sahasrahara. We are so blessed!


Monday, October 14, 2013



Please don’t attempt this. It is a Divine Blessing! Bhagavan has to give it to us. All we can see is that we are unable to let go of control. That's what I did!

To continue from Golden Ball Darshan……

Whenever I return home from an Oneness Process, I find that it continues for a few weeks to the point where yet another permanent change occurs within me.

After the process at Pooja’s home, the first couple of days were like any other and then the mind began to do its work. I kept oscillating between breakthrough and breakdown. That’s when Amma told me to take Golden Ball Deeksha every day. I take Deeksha from the Srimurti at least thrice in a day.

I took Her advice and began taking Golden Ball Deeksha. To begin with, I visualised the Golden Ball in my hands before I placed them on my head. But after the first attempt, the Golden Ball began to appear in my vision during each Deeksha. Thank you so much Amma Bhagavan!

While my mind niggled that I had still not had Bhagawat Shaakshaatkaar, I slowly felt a unique peace seep within me. I began lighting a lamp and agarbatti every morning and night. Those who know me will definitely know that this is an uncommon occurrence. I am not too much into rituals and don’t follow a fixed pattern. As you can see, I light the lamp at night and that’s because that’s when I chant the Moolamantra for 21 minutes. Again, most of the days, but not every day. As we grow in Oneness, we realise that there is no compulsion to do anything and it’s best to go with the flow.

How to let go of control?

We can’t! And Bhagavan says that all we have to do is SEE that we are unable to let go of control. We plan our days, our weeks, our years and our lives, for that matter. Planning takes away all the energy and when do we live? He says that we don’t. We just exist. So very true!

That’s because we want to control every aspect of our lives. Not just that, we want to control every aspect of our spouse’s and children’s lives. We are actually leading a tortuous existence. Bhagavan is ready, willing and definitely has a million times better ability to run our lives.

But… what if He ignores my wishes? What if I am not able to achieve exactly what I want? What if this…. What if that?

Questions asked by the mind.

It’s actually very simple. God has created us for a purpose. That purpose will have its way, even if we take a thousand janams to achieve it. And believe me, when we are following our soul’s path, we will definitely find peace. But for that we need to let go. But is that possible? Not by our efforts. It takes the Divine Will to handle that. But how to get the Divine to help us in this matter? God has said that He will not interfere in our lives unless we call out to Him.

So, call Him. That’s what I did.

There were many days and nights that I have felt the pressure of wanting to control every aspect of my existence.

What my Antaryaamin made me see was this: As a human being, I have a very small purview of everything. Whereas GOD has a total 360 degree view while he also knows my past, present and future. At the same time I am trying to squeeze my life into a minuscule frame that is formed by my imagination, HE is ready to hand over the universe to me on a platter, without any effort on my part. Would it not be a smarter move to give my life into His keeping?

That’s how I realised the value of Surrender. Please understand that I had understood the lesson at my mind’s level at this point. Thinking ‘Surrender is best’ does not bring it about. I went on doing the Shashtang Namaskaarams every day. Not eleven times each day, may be - but definitely every day.

Is there a choice? It’s Bhagavan at work here. Surrender occurred, finally, after the process at Pooja’s place. So has Gratitude. I used to lack in gratitude. I realised that because my Antaryaamin told me so. But I feel more of that emotion too nowadays.

Yes, I am finally in a state of surrender, living on a day-to-day basis. I am not saying that this is ‘it’. There is still a way to go. But, looking back over the years, I have come a very very long way, all thanks to My Bhagavan.

Every day, before going to bed, I tell Bhagavan that I would like to complete a set of tasks the next day. I also give Him the freedom to decide if He wants to experience those tasks through me. Then I just sit back and relax. The work gets done, completely. Most of the time I am surprised at my energy levels, my determination to complete something, my total lack of distraction, my focus, etc. Then I realised, it is not ME. It is HIM doing the work. I am just sitting back and enjoying the ride. I don’t even have the worry of wondering whether I will complete my targets. It’s not my responsibility any more. I have truly LET GO! That has been possible only because of DIVINE BLESSING!

Is there a Sundari? I don’t know nor do I care. I am just GOING WITH THE FLOW.

So, at the end of the day, I just thank Amma Bhagavan for doing all my work and set out another batch of tasks for the next day. I don’t feel the urge to think beyond that. HE is doing it for me, so why should I bother?


Friday, October 4, 2013


When I spoke to Pooja last Saturday, she had mentioned that she would be beginning a new process in her home – Bhagawat Shaakshaatkaar process.

It was my birthday on Monday and I was keen to participate in the process on that day. Luckily for me, Pooja immediately agreed to conduct the process for me on September 30, 2013.

When she took me through the contemplation, I closed my eyes and had a vision of the Golden Ball hovering near the Srimurti. The vision lasted for a minute or so and went away. After that, I had no other experience during the process.

I prayed to Amma Bhagavan thus, “You created me on this same date 52 years ago. That was at 6.30 pm. Please recreate Sundari without the ‘self’ today at 6.30 pm, Amma Bhagavan. And please give me your Physical Darshan.”

Bhagavan immediately agreed that He would do that.

In the evening, I asked Bhagavan about it. Grinning, He told me, “I have already come out of the Srimurti”.

When I shared this with Pooja, she immediately said that we would sing a few bhajans and Amma Bhagavan would definitely give darshan.

While she sat down to sing, I just could not sit back on my chair. I felt compelled to get up and dance. I automatically closed my eyes and once again saw the Golden Ball hovering near the Srimurti.

It appeared to move from the Srimurti towards me. It went back and forth for a few times and suddenly went into my heart chakra. My mind is extremely active and keeps questioning everything that happens. I immediately wondered, ‘how come the heart and not the Sahasrahara?’

The Golden Ball immediately moved to my forehead and then my Sahasrahara. Then it went down to the Manipura, Swadishtana & Mooladhara. I could see it moving everywhere. It then moved to my throat and finally settled back in my heart.

That’s when Pooja sang out, ‘Aavo, mere dil mein baso Amma’. I was stunned to see Amma climbing to sit on a seat that was suddenly there in my heart. She adjusted her sari and settled down. I went on seeing this in wonder while Bhagavan was standing beside her, smiling.

I was sitting at this time as I was a bit tired with the dancing. Suddenly, I saw Amma get up, raise her arm and dance. How could I sit watching that? I also got up and danced with her. And Bhagavan joined us. Then suddenly, both Amma & Bhagavan were sitting on a swing (jhula) within my heart that had become golden in colour. They swung on the jhula, back and forth, back and forth.

I am supremely grateful to Amma & Bhagavan for being a part of my life, 24/7.


Wednesday, September 25, 2013


I had been having incontinence since 2 to 2 ½ years. This is basically not having control over one’s bladder. I believe at least 45% of women suffer from this in middle age. I attended yoga classes for a few days and the teacher taught me a Mudra for curing incontinence.

I started doing it immediately. I used to deep breathe 100 times everyday using that Mudra. It gave immediate relief and in fact I dared to go to Bangalore by bus because I felt much better.

I continued to do the deep breathing and Mudra for more than four months with excellent results. I had even increased deep breathing to a count of 200.

Then suddenly, a few weeks back, the problem reared its head again. I thought it will disappear but it persisted for two days.

Mudra for setting right water
balance in the body
I was in a fantastic state of breakthrough and was unfazed. I told Bhagavan, “See Bhagavan, I have done my best to get cured of incontinence. I can’t do anything more than this. If this is what you want to experience as Sundari, please go ahead and do it. I give you total freedom.”

That’s it!

It has been at least three weeks since I told Bhagavan these words and I have never had this problem again. I have not even done the Mudra and deep breathing since then. I am amazed yet again at Bhagavan’s grace and have no words of gratitude.

Being one with a strong mind, I kept checking again and yet again if I am losing control. But then, I realise that it’s the Biggest Boss of the Universe in charge. I am finally totally free of incontinence.


Tuesday, August 13, 2013


As I have mentioned in a previous blog – Bhagavan in my kitchen - Bhagavan is a great help in my kitchen.

Today morning, He performed a miracle. Well, miracles have become a way of life with Him in my life. But I have to write about this one.

I had heated two litres of milk last night at about 8 pm. I was waiting for it to cool down before putting it in the fridge. While I went to sleep only at 12.30, I had forgotten about it completely.

In the morning, when I walked into the kitchen at 6.40 am, I was startled to see the milk vessel sitting there on my kitchen platform.

My daughter has to leave early to work and there was no one else up to go buy fresh milk. Of course, help is always at hand when you call out to the Almighty. I told God to please take care of the issue and after removing the cream, I reheated the milk in another vessel. From previous experience, I know the chances were high that the milk would be spoilt. But then Bhagavan is just waiting to perform miracles when we call out.

The milk was boiled and was in perfect condition, not having lost its freshness. My son is very sensitive to taste and even he felt there was nothing wrong with the milk. In fact he said that it tasted better than usual. I, of course, was not surprised to hear that.

Sri Bhagavan says that as the consciousness level increases, problems don’t necessarily cease. But the way we perceive them changes. I could see that change in myself all thanks to Sri Bhagavan’s guidance from within me.